WIP-It Wednesday

stay up for hours just watching her breathe

I didn’t know how to express the feelings I experienced. Hell, they barely felt like feelings. They felt like exhaustion, commitment, obligation. It was slogging and difficult work.

Anything and everything I had done in my life for the past eight years I revisited with tweezers and magnifying glass scrutiny. How could I have changed the outcome? Why didn’t I have the outcome I thought I wanted. How could I go back and change everything?

I began having dreams where I could time travel and now-me would tell past me to make little changes.

I would wake up because I couldn’t breathe.

My apartment felt confining, constricting. I ran outside just to breathe more than once. I had waking nightmares of dropping Myrna. At those times I would look into the side crib, assure myself that everything was alright, and then stay up for hours just watching Myrna breathe. She was here, she was safe.

I hadn’t forgotten to feed her or change her diapers. I hadn’t left her someplace and then not been able to remember.

I started to look up my foibles so many times. Each time I either couldn’t complete filling out the search field, or I would not click on the links.

When I finally clicked on one of the links I fell down a rabbit hole of patient cure thyself bull. Blogs that looked like they had useful articles denied the existence of postpartum depression, others tried to sell me essential oils to get out of my funk. And too many of them assumed I had a partner who could help me with my burden of guilt.

©2019 Lulu M. Sylvian,currently untitled from the Phantom Stars Trilogy

Awakening cover reveal

Awakening Ebook
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Title: Awakening
Author: Bethany Adams
Series: Return of the Elves (Book 6)
Release Date: 19th February
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★SYNOPSIS★
An unexpected duty
For three hundred years, Princess Dria has avoided the drama of the royal court by training as a battle mage. When her father summons her back to court just as she begins to rise up the ranks, she’s furious. Even worse, she must work with her estranged brother Ralan on a mission to Earth. But as soon as Dria arrives at Moranaia’s new outpost, her brother drops the leadership of the entire place into her hands. Now she’s in charge of fortifying a new outpost on a planet she’s never even visited.
An abhorrent task
Prince Vek of the Unseelie has spent millennia as his father’s enforcer, working in the shadows to eliminate evil, but after sparing his nephew Fen from the king’s judgement, Vek must tread carefully. One false move, and he will lose the king’s trust—and Fen’s life. But when the king gives Vek a new, more sinister task, Fen becomes the least of his worries. The Moranaians have a new colony on Earth, and King Torek wants the energy source that’s contained within. Vek must retrieve that power—even if he has to kill the Moranaian leader to get it.
A threat unknown
From the moment she catches Vek sneaking into the cavern, Dria knows the truth—the dark and mysterious prince is her soulbonded. But she’s certain he’s up to no good, and although she’s drawn to him, there is no way she can trust him. His reputation, and that of the Unseelie in general, precedes him. Unfortunately, more than desire is awakening. As they dance around their budding attraction, Dria and Vek uncover a deathly illness lurking among the fae—and a sinister plot that will damage both their worlds.

 

Happy New Year!

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Well, It’s 2019, and I’m not seeing any flying cars.
I’m also very much not ready for it to be a new year.

Last year was pretty phenomenal!

I released the first five in the Legatum series! I got to play in Kindle Words again, and I released my second Holiday Stripper story.

I also learned so much about marketing and advertising, and I’ve got to say this: my brain hurts. It’s an every changing landscape on how to reach new friends and readers. There is no cookie cutter approach. You can’t just throw money at it and expect to come away with sales.

Something I did not expect when I became a writer: that I would have to become a marketing maven as well.

I just ended my two-year stint as the local RWA chapter secretary. That was great fun, I learned a lot. And I became friends with my fellow chapter leaders. (ooh I’m a “chapter leader”–ok, not anymore).

So what’s in store for 2019?

There will be more Improper Derailment episodes.

I’m working on new exciting ideas…

Fallen Stars
(was Phantom Stars was unnamed, was… it went through a lot)

Their lives were full of lights, cameras, action, and glamour. Their deaths are where they find love.

Belvoir County
The biggest cocks in Kentucky. Magic, love, and fried chicken.

The Wolves of Wet Waterfalls
Werewolves, demons, and a little reverse harem action.

…and continuing with the next chapter in Legatum:
Redemption. Nando knows he messed up in San Diego. He needs to prove to his sister he is more than a spoiled, ego-centric brat. He needs to prove that to himself as well.

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